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Hi beautiful,
I’M ANGELIKA BUT FRIENDS AND STUDENTS
CALL ME ANGEL.
MY STORY WITH SPIRITUALITY, HEALING AND TRANSFORMATION STARTS VERY YOUNG. I WAS ALWAYS A DEEPLY SPIRITUAL CHILD. MY MOTHER WOULD OFTEN BE FRIGHTENED WHEN I WOULD RECOGNISE PLACES ON TV THAT I HAD NEVER BEEN OR COULDN’T POSSIBLY KNOW ABOUT. AT TWO YEARS OLD POINTING AT A SHOT ON THE NEWS OF NYC, I SAID “NEW YORK CITY! I LOVE IT THERE!”
I HAVE MEMORIES OF BEING 5 OR 6 YEARS OLD SITTING IN A HOT TUB WITH MY OLDER RELATIVE, SHE WAS EXTREMELY DISTRESSED ABOUT A BREAK UP. MY CHANNEL OPENED UP AND I WAS GIVING HER DIRECT GUIDANCE… NEEDLESS TO SAY SHE WAS SHOCKED.
I WANTED CRYSTALS AND CHILDREN’S MEDITATION BOOKS, I TOLD MY MOTHER’S FRIEND ABOUT WHERE I THINK WE GO WHEN WE DIE AND MY BELIEFS AROUND WHAT I NOW KNOW IS CALLED ‘INCARNATION’. SHE WAS FLABBERGASTED AND GAVE ME A BOOK TO READ CALLED ‘MANY LIVES, MANY MASTERS’ THAT DESCRIBED EXACTLY WHAT I WAS RECOUNTING TO HER ABOUT THE AFTERLIFE. IT HAD BEEN DISCOVERED BY A HYPNOTHERAPIST AS HE REPEATEDLY PUT HIS CLIENTS INTO DEEP HYPNOTIC STATES, THEY WOULD BEGIN TO RECOUNT PAST LIVES… I WAS 11.
BY THE TIME I WAS 13 MY SIBLING STARTED GOING IN AND OUT OF REHABS AND MENTAL HEALTH FACILITIES. EACH DAY AFTER SCHOOL I WOULD VISIT HIM, SOMETIMES IN HIGH SECURITY FACILITIES WHERE I COULD HEAR SCREAMS COMING FROM PADDED CELLS, THIS EXPERIENCE IMPACTED ME PROFOUNDLY.
I STARTED TO QUESTION, WHY IS IT SOME PEOPLE SEEM TO EFFORTLESSLY MAINTAIN HEALTH AND HAPPINESS WHILE OTHER PEOPLE STRUGGLE SO MUCH THEY END UP IN INSTITUTIONS LIKE THE ONES I WOULD VISIT MY SIBLING IN?
I FOUND IN THOSE PLACES THAT I HAD A GIFT, I COULD SIT WITH PEOPLE IN A LOT OF PAIN WITHOUT BACKING AWAY. NURSES WOULD RUN TO REMOVE THE PATIENTS FROM CLINGING TO MY ARMS OR SITTING CLOSE TO ME AND I WOULD SHOO THE NURSES AWAY SAYING THEY WERE OK HERE WITH ME. I WOULD LISTEN INTENTLY TO THEM, ALTHOUGH OFTEN RAMBLING MADNESS, EVERY NOW AND THEN, INSIGHT AND BRILLIANCE WOULD COME THROUGH THEM.
I STARTED TO NOTICE MANY OF THE BEINGS IN THESE PLACES WERE EXTREMELY SPIRITUALLY GIFTED, RECOGNISING PSYCHIC GIFTS, AS MANY OF THEM WOULD COME TO ME AND SHARE THINGS THEY WOULD HAVE NO WAY OF KNOWING ABOUT ME. ALTHOUGH EXTREMELY UNGROUNDED AND SUFFERING UNDER THE WEIGHT OF SO MUCH PAIN, THEY WERE OFTEN EXTREMELY GIFTED BEINGS WHO HAD BUCKLED UNDER THE WEIGHT OF EXTREME TRAUMA WITHOUT PROPER CARE OR SUPPORT.
WHAT WAS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THESE PEOPLE AND THE PSYCHIC MY MUM HAD BEEN TAKING ME TO SEE SINCE I WAS ABOUT 14? I HAD BEEN GOING TO DEAL WITH MY ENERGETIC SENSITIVITIES AND SUPERNATURAL EXPERIENCES THAT TERRIFIED ME (TO HEAR MORE ABOUT THIS, LISTEN TO PODCAST EPISODE 1 HERE). THE PHYSIC I SAW HAD MADE A CAREER OUT OF HER GIFTS, WHILE THESE FOLK SEEMED TO HAVE BEEN DISENFRANCHISED FROM SOCIETY BECAUSE OF THEIRS.
IT ISN’T TO SAY EVERY SINGLE PERSON I ENCOUNTERED IN THE MENTAL INSTITUTIONS WAS SPIRITUALLY GIFTED (MANY WERE)… BUT I CAN SAY, THEY WERE ALL SENSITIVE AND DEEPLY TRAUMATISED INDIVIDUALS. CRUSHED UNDER THE WEIGHT OF THEIR INABILITY TO TUNE OUT THE PAIN OF THE WORLD… AND WITHOUT PROPER CARE, SUPPORT OR TOOLS TO INTEGRATE THE OFTEN HORRIFYING CHILDHOOD EXPERIENCES THEY HAD ENCOUNTERED.
I RECOGNISED MY OWN ENERGETIC SENSITIVITIES AND GIFTS WITHIN THESE TRAUMATISED BEINGS AND FOR WHATEVER REASON I HAD BEEN LUCKY ENOUGH TO COME INTO THIS WORLD WITH A GIFT THAT I BELIEVED SAVED MY LIFE
- I COULD SING.
I NOW KNOW THAT SINGING IS ONE OF THE MOST POWERFUL WAYS TO MOVE STAGNANT ENERGY AND THAT SCIENCE SHOWS US IT TONES OUR VAGUS NERVE. RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR ABILITY TO RELAX, RELEASE STRESS, AND TIED TO SIGNIFICANT POSITIVE INCREASES IN MENTAL HEALTH.
I SANG EVERY DAY SINCE I COULD TALK, EVERYWHERE I WENT, I COULD BE HEARD COMING. I WAS DANCING SINCE I WAS 4, IN MUSICAL THEATRE SINCE I WAS 10 AND BEGAN WRITING POETRY AVIDLY AT 12. I, BY THE GRACE OF THE GODDESS, FOLLOWED MY DEEP INSPIRATION FOR THESE CRAFTS AND UTILISED THEM SUBCONSCIOUSLY AS HEALING ARTS.
THROUGH MY RIGOROUS MUSICAL THEATRE SCHEDULE I WAS INTRODUCED TO YOGA AT THE RIPE AGE OF 14. AS A WAY TO DEEPEN MY FLEXIBILITY AND RECOVER MY MUSCLES ON OFF DAYS. ANOTHER EXTREMELY LUCKY BREAK… OR IF LIKE ME YOU DON’T BELIEVE IN LUCK, A BREAD CRUMB LEFT BY MY SOUL THAT MY YOUNGER SELF WAS BRAVE ENOUGH TO FOLLOW.
I WAS LIVING A DOUBLE LIFE, DEEPLY SPIRITUAL, PSYCHICALLY CONNECTED AND MY ABILITIES AS AN INTUITIVE CHANNEL… COUPLED WITH THE TYPICAL AUSTRALIAN LIFE OF A TEENAGER, BINGE DRINKING, CLOTHES AND TEENAGE HEARTBREAK.
I CONTINUED SEE-SAWING THROUGH LIFE. I ELOPED AT 18 AND RAN AWAY TO BRAZIL TO LIVE WITH MY HUSBAND, THE MARRIAGE FELL APART BUT LIVING IN BRAZIL MADE ME THE WOMAN I AM TODAY. I LEARNED SAMBA AND BOSSA NOVA MUSIC WITH JAZZ MUSICIANS AND FLUENT PORTUGUESE.
RELATIONSHIPS AND HEART BREAK WERE THE BIGGEST DOJO'S OF SPIRITUAL GROWTH FOR ME.
NIGHTS SPENT DANCING IN SWEATY WOODEN LODGES ON STILTS, SUSPENDED IN THE SAND DUNES OF SOUTHERN BRAZIL. DRINKING CAIPIRINHAS AND KNOWING FREEDOM LIKE I HAD NEVER KNOWN IT BEFORE. I ACTIVATED MY UNBRIDLED SEXUALITY AWAY FROM THE PRYING EYES OF MY SMALL TOWN. I CAME BACK A WOMAN AND ONE IN CHARGE OF HER PLEASURE AT THAT.
“AND WHAT ABOUT YOU? WHAT IS IT YOU TRULY WANT?”
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I TREKKED MACHU PICCHU ALONE AND AT THE TOP OF HUAYNA PICCHU A VOICE STARTLED ME AS IT RANG OUT LOUD AND CLEAR
ANSWERING THAT QUESTION FOR MYSELF...
I RETURNED TO AUSTRALIA AND COMPLETED MY BACHELOR OF MUSIC IN SYDNEY. AS I GRADUATED I ALSO STUDIED YOGA IN BALI AND CERTIFIED AS A TEACHER, AFTER NEARLY A DECADE OF PERSONAL PRACTICE.
BY THE TIME I WAS 21 I FOUND MY WAY TO LOS ANGELES. I WAS DETERMINED TO MAKE IT AS AN ACTRESS, SINGER AND MODEL. I ALSO FOUND MYSELF DEEPLY DEPRESSED, ALONE AND PARTYING WAY TOO HARD, USING PARTY DRUGS AND ALCOHOL TO NUMB MY EXISTENTIAL LONELINESS.
I WOULD GO OUT MOST NIGHTS, OFTEN ALONE AND I HAD PUSHED AWAY ALL OF MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS FROM BACK HOME OUT OF THE SHAME FROM NOT HAVING YET “MADE IT”. PURSUING A CAREER IN THE ENTERTAINMENT INDUSTRY WAS A DOWNWARD SPIRAL INTO MISERY. I WAS SPIRITUALLY, EMOTIONALLY AND FINANCIALLY BANKRUPT.
I THOUGHT BACK TO MY YEARS VISITING MY SIBLING IN THE REHABS AND MENTAL INSTITUTIONS AND RECOGNISED I WAS ON A FAST TRACK THERE MYSELF.
I KNEW HOW HIGH THE COST WOULD BE IF I DID NOT MANAGE TO HEAL MY OWN TRAUMA, GROUND MY OWN SPIRITUAL GIFTS AND TAKE CARE OF MY ENERGETICALLY SENSITIVE SELF - I HAD SEEN IT FIRST HAND.
SO I DEVOTED MYSELF TO MY SPIRITUAL PRACTICE AND I GOT SOBER. AS PART OF MY OWN HEALING JOURNEY I STARTED HOSTING PEOPLE AT MY HOME IN LOS FELIZ, LOS ANGELES TO DO YOGA AND ENERGETIC HEALING SESSIONS. MY FRIENDS WOULD COME AND SAY “THIS IS YOUR GIFT, THIS IS YOU. WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT MUSIC YOU ARE ALWAYS SAD… BUT THIS LIGHTS YOU UP. PLEASE YOU MUST DO THIS.”
SO I DID.
I FELL IN LOVE WITH AN ENGLISHMAN, MOVED TO LONDON AND THERE I BUILT THE BEGINNINGS OF MY HEALING AND TRANSFORMATION BUSINESS. I WAS TEACHING YOGA IN LONDON STUDIOS AND QUICKLY DEVELOPED A CULT FOLLOWING AND 1:1 CLIENT BASE. MY HEALING JOURNEY WAS STILL VERY MUCH UNDERWAY AND I HAD A LOT OF DEMONS TO FACE BUT I WAS DEVOTED. EVERY SINGLE DAY I CONSUMED ANYTHING I COULD GET MY HANDS ON, READING HUNDREDS AND HUNDREDS OF BOOKS. SOMETIMES READING A NEW ONE EVERY THREE DAYS OR SO. I MEDITATED DAILY, I DID MY YOGA PRACTICE AND I TAUGHT. I WAS DEVOTED, I HAD FOUND MY OBSESSION, MY DHARMA.
AFTER ALL WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN ADDICTION AND A WELL TRAINED HABIT? BOTH INCLUDE UNCONSCIOUS REPETITION…. BUT THE OUTCOME IS EITHER EMPOWERING OR DISEMPOWERING. I HAD FOUND MY EMPOWERING COMPULSION… YET IT HAD BEEN THERE ALL ALONG.
IT’S BEEN 9 YEARS NOW WORKING IN THE HEALING AND TRANSFORMATION SPACE AND I CAN STILL HARDLY BELIEVE IT WHEN I WRITE THAT MY WORK HAS TOUCHED MILLIONS OF PEOPLE VIA GLOBAL PLATFORMS LIKE O2 PRIORITY AND HAPPY NOT PERFECT. I’VE WORKED WITH THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE DIRECTLY THROUGH MY ONLINE PROGRAMS AND HUNDREDS OF HOURS 1 TO 1 WITH CLIENTS.
MY EXPERIENCE WORKING WITH SO MANY BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE HAS TAUGHT ME SO MUCH, AS HAVE MY MANY TEACHERS BOTH LIVING AND DEAD… BUT WHAT HAS TAUGHT ME THE MOST OF ALL IS THE CONTINUAL INTEGRATION OF MY OWN TRAUMA AND PAIN.
THE ALCHEMY OF TAKING MY GREATEST PAIN AND ALLOWING IT TO BECOME THE SOURCE OF MY DEEPEST POWER AND WISDOM. OVERCOMING MY OWN SUFFERING, DEPRESSION, TRAUMA, ADDICTION AND CHILDHOOD WOUNDING. TO LIVE THE LIFE OF ABSOLUTE THRIVING THAT I GET TO BE GRATEFUL FOR EVERYDAY.
I RUN A BUSINESS I LOVE CHANGING PEOPLES LIVES, I LIVE IN A BEAUTIFUL HOME WITH A HUSBAND THAT I LOVE BEYOND WORDS AND WHOM LOVES ME DEEPLY AND TRULY. I HAVE A TRIBE OF BAD ASS, POWERFUL, INSPIRING AND SUPPORTIVE WOMEN AROUND ME… BUT I DON’T HAVE TO PINCH MYSELF. I KNOW WHY THIS LIFE IS HERE. I BUILT IT FROM THE GROUND UP, BIT BY BIT, DAY BY DAY - I WAS WHOLLY DEVOTED TO MY OWN AWAKENING… AND NOW I AM WHOLLY DEVOTED TO YOURS.
WHAT I’VE COME TO LEARN IN MY 30 YEARS ON THIS PLANET AND MY NEAR DECADE AS A DEVOTEE OF AWAKENING, IS THAT THE TRUEST PURPOSE OF EACH OF OUR SOULS IS COMPLETELY UNIQUE. THEREFORE AWAKENING TO THAT UNIQUE GENIUS WITHIN EACH OF US, IS THE HIGHEST POTENTIAL OF OUR SOUL AND LIFETIME.
WHEN WE LEARN HOW TO SPIN OUR PAIN INTO POWER, TO LEARN FROM THE LESSONS IN OUR UNIQUE LIFE EXPERIENCES AND TO ACTIVATE THE GIFTS OUR SOUL CAME INTO THIS LIFETIME WITH… EVERYTHING ELSE ALIGNS… BECAUSE WE ARE ALIGNED. THE AMAZING PARTNER, THE TRIBE OF QUEENS, THE MONEY AND FULFILLING CAREER ARE ALL SYMPTOMS OF INTEGRATING YOUR PAST PAIN, SO THAT IT NO LONGER GETS IN THE WAY OF YOUR INHERENT WISDOM AND THE WILD ESSENCE OF YOUR SOUL.
THERE IS A WELL TRODDEN PATH TO GET THERE MY LOVE AND I'M HERE TO WALK IT EVERY STEP OF THE WAY WITH YOU, SHOULD YOU CHOOSE. I CREATED THE SOMATIC HEALING INSTITUTE AS A SPACE OF RESOURCE FOR SEXUAL, SPIRITUAL AND RELATIONAL HEALING. IT IS MY LIFE’S WORK AND I AM BEYOND ECSTATIC TO SHARE IT WITH YOU.
SO IF YOU KNOW YOUR SOUL ACHES TO REMEMBER WHO YOU REALLY ARE, WHO YOU WERE BEFORE THE WORLD TAUGHT YOU WHO TO BE, HOW YOU INHABITED YOUR BODY BEFORE YOU KNEW SHAME AND HOW YOU LOVED BEFORE YOU KNEW HURT… THEN LET’S GET TO THE JOURNEY BELOVED.
OUR CAPACITY TO BE CONNECTED TO OURSELVES AND EACH OTHER DETERMINES THE QUALITY OF OUR LIVES AND THE QUALITY OF OUR ALIVENESS.
WE DON’T GET TO SKIP OUR SOUL WORK OR FULFILLING THE DESTINY OUR SOUL CAME TO FULFIL. THERE IS A SOLUTION YOU ARE UNIQUELY POISED TO CONTRIBUTE TO ON THIS PLANET. WISDOM, WILDNESS AND SOUL GIFTS THAT YOU INCARNATED TO BRING AS YOUR GIFT TO THIS EARTH. THE GREATEST GIFT YOU CAME TO GIVE TO THIS PLANET - IS YOU. SO FIRST WE MUST RE-CONNECT YOU TO YOUR ORIGINAL ESSENCE.
IT IS NOT A JOURNEY RESERVED FOR A SPECIAL FEW, IT’S THE JOURNEY EVERY SOUL CAME FOR. AND WOW IS IT A JOURNEY HONEY! ONE HELL OF A RIDE … AND RIDICULOUS FUN ONCE YOU GET THE HANG OF IT!
IF YOU CHOOSE, I’D LOVE TO WALK THE PATH OF THRIVING, EMBODIMENT AND AWAKENING WITH YOU SISTER.